As you can see, I have left the published post “IMATS TORONTO 2013” blank for over a month now. Is it because I’m too lazy to edit the video? No. It is because I can’t finish editing the video? Maybe. It is because I can’t put out the video? Yes, and for good reasons.
I dabbed into the field of make up and “beauty guru” through my best friend S last Christmas after she proposed the idea of a “best friend YouTube channel”. Since then I have been actively learning and absorbing all the content I can find in the YouTube beauty guru community in order to be able to create meaningful content. Many months, dollars, and failed attempts (of filming together) later, I recorded, edited, and published my first video.
Honestly, it was a wonderful experience. I enjoyed talking to people around me about my video ideas, I had fun goofying around in front of the camera, and then watch myself do it again after. I learned a lot about editing, about filming, and most importantly, about how I am seen in the eyes of others. It was an eye-opening experience to say the least.
Then why am I not putting out my 2nd video?
Gut reaction. It’s that faint yet powerful gut wrenching feeling telling me that no, that’s not what you’re passionate about, that’s not what you stand for, and that’s certainly not what you want to be spending any more of your time and money on. My heart probably found that out after my brain decided that hauls are probably the most unhealthy kind of videos on YouTube.
So what DO I want to put out?
Creativity, happiness, purpose. I want to juice my brain out for the brightest ideas, turn them into videos that bring so much joy to all the people watching and I want my videos to have a purpose.
So stay tuned for a super exciting series I’m hoping to produce over the winter break and keep on following happygocarol.
Good night y’all.